Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I broke my son's face.


Brendan had to get his Palate Expander last Tuesday and I've been the one in charge of turning the little dial every morning and night. The idea is to break the palate, then let him wait 3 months until the bones heal. After that time, he will get braces on his front top & bottom teeth. The orthodontic tech indicated that we'd be able to tell when the palate was split because he would suddenly have a gap between his two front teeth. It happened on Friday. I felt awful. It needed to be done, but I hate being the bad guy on things like this. I don't even take the kids in for their immunizations, Tom does. That is our deal - I get pregnancy/delivery and he gets shots. Unfortunately, I didn't think ahead far enough to tell him that his part of the deal includes breaking bones, if necessary. Ugh!

But, his gap between his front teeth is expanding nicely and he doesn't seem to be in as much pain as he was on Friday when it finally gave-way.

I talked to Marc today. He hasn't had telephone access until this week (after 6 weeks of being up the river). He is doing ok. He is actually quite distraught. His dog, Kye, died while he was gone. His father told him about it the other day on the phone. Marc is just devastated over it. She was his baby. She was diagnosed with a heart condition this past spring, so Marc knew that she had some health issues. He just didn't expect her to pass away while he was in Alaska.

Other than that, life is just peachy! Brendan leaves on Sunday to spend a week with Sean. Tom has a conference up here next week so he won't be driving to Ft. Collins. Unfortunately, we won't be seeing much of him because he'll be gone from breakfast through dinner every day.

I'm going scrapbooking on Saturday in Ft. Collins. Can't wait! Some of the DT gals will be there, and some of my friends of Cheyenne will be going down, too. It should be tons of fun!!!

We went to the Denver Broncos Training Camp yesterday. I got a super good picture of Jay Cutler. I will post it when I get the pics downloaded from the camera. We had a super time. Katie came home with a cool PINK Jay Cutler jersey and Brendan found a neat Broncos cap. They were both happy with their souvenirs!

I'll post later in the week with the pics!

Friday, July 25, 2008

A little down this week.........

I think I am going through a mini-depression. I don't say that lightly. I really think I am. I can always tell when I am getting down because I start reading a bunch of fluffy fiction books. nonstop. I have read 9 books in the last 8 days. All of them fluff. Nothing of value to them other than the opportunity to escape life for a while. That is so not like me.

You see, I turn 40 in less than 2 weeks. Why do milestone birthdays seem to make us evaluate our lives? Why do we start thinking about "where we are" compared to "where we thought we'd be"?

I always assumed that by the time I hit 40, I would:

- have finished my college degree.
- be enjoying a fabulous career in accounting (yes, I know that is an oxymoron because accounting is supposed to be boring - but I've always loved it and that was my goal).
- be more grown up and super confident and oh-so-very sure of myself and life and things in general.
- have a herd of really terrific girlie friends that would help me enjoy being "fabulous at 40".
- be fit, trim, completely in-style, and still have gorgeous fingernails.

Instead I:

- have only taken 2 additional classes since I earned my Associates Degree in 1995.
- have no career whatsoever.
- still feel like I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing.
- have a couple of casual scrapbooking friends, but no really strong "best-friend", long-term girlfriends who know how to make me laugh and cheer me up and who would call to be sad with me that I am turning 40 and haven't reached any of my goals and dreams. My parents moved too much during my childhood for me to ever have forged those types of friendships so I completely lack that skill.
- am pudgy, wear nothing but capris and tank tops in the summer, and my fingernails are atrocious (I stopped getting them done when I was pregnant with Brendan and I've missed them every since).

I know I've done a lot of things since my 20's, but I am not at all where I expected myself to be. And while I am extremely happy with my life, I can't help but think that my 25-year-old-self would be quite disappointed (on the verge of disgusted) with my almost-40-year-old-self. And that makes me somewhat sad. And the fact that I am sad makes me even more sad because I am typically a very positive person. Does that make sense to anyone but me?

I wandered around Barnes & Noble for a while last night. My little escape after we finished dinner. Tom always encourages me to get away like that because I usually come home so refreshed. Not last night. I wandered around for a while and bought a scrapooking magazine (the only one I don't get as a subscription), and couldn't really find anything that I wanted to buy, which is highly unusual. I love books. I read constantly (although not usually at the pace of 9 books in 8 days). I did find something that struck me as quite odd though: as I was perusing through the Biography section, I realized that Pope John Paul II's biography was located directly NEXT TO some famous porn star, Jenna Jamison's (well, according to her book cover she is a famous porn star). I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. PJP2 must be rolling over in his grave!!!

On a brighter note, look what I got for my birthday from my very understanding, totally amazing, and completely wonderful husband:

He gave it to me early. I love it. It can hold so many more songs than my old iPod did. And it is pink which makes it way cuter than my old iPod, too.

Just so this post doesn't sound overly-negative, I feel like I should add some positive things to it. So, while I am not where I thought I would be, I am blessed because:

- I have focused on raising my children rather than furthering my education up to this point. I can always go back to school, but this time in their lives is so fleeting.
- I have the luxury and supreme honor of staying at home to make sure that my family knows that they are far more important to me than any career I could ever have.
- I know that I have no idea what I am doing in this life, but I guess that is the nice thing about life. We never know what it's all about. It just "is". That's what makes it so darned fun.
- my dearest friend in the world happens to have chosen ME to spend forever with. He is an amazing person and even after almost 14 years, I still pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming.
- I am making changes to get back in shape, lose weight, and then I can buy some super-cute trendy new clothes. or not. And although my nails aren't gorgeous any more, they are practical and perfectly fine for my lifestyle right now.

I'd better end this before I go all negative again. Have a blessed day!

Monday, July 21, 2008

Finally - a new week!

I got sick again last week - a relapse of pneumonia. I went to the dr. on Wednesday and he put me on a different antibiotic, 2 inhalers, and a nasal spray. Hopefully I am over it completely now. I do not want that back again. I still have a bad cough and am quite fatigued, but feel soooooooo much better than I did last week.

Brendan is done with golf lessons for the year. He had a great time at Collindale. They always do a golf tournament for the kids in their Junior Golf program. He'll play in that on August 12. He is pretty excited. We had to go buy him new clubs last Tuesday night - he had outgrown his since our trip to Hawaii! We were lucky to find him a great set on sale right here in town!

Tom played in the Tri-State golf tournament this past weekend. He came in 9th in his flight. He was fairly happy with that. The wind howled all day on Saturday so the scores were pretty high. He is glad that his swing is finally back. Those lessons in Hawaii really paid off for him!

We got the hoop post concreted into the slab last night. Tom will finish installing the basketball hoop tonight. The kids (and Tom) are pretty excited! It is a really nice adjustable one so we can lower it for Brendan and Katie.

Well, I'm going to spend the day cleaning, doing laundry, and trying to catch up from last week. Brendan has his orthodontist appointment tomorrow morning so they can install his palate separator. He will get his 8 braces in the next few months.

Well, that is all from here. I am hoping to get some scrapbooking in tonight or tomorrow. I did a little bit yesterday, but not as much as I'd have liked.

Have a super week!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

My Little Baseball Player

Here is my sweet boy!

Another Update

Tom had his annual review this morning at work - and scored fantastically! I am not surprised. he works so hard. He met his new Regional Managing Director and really liked him. He doesn't have an Office Director yet, but hopefully they'll find someone terrific.

Tom has decided that he is going to try to get on the Board for baseball and we may keep Brendan in Cheyenne Junior League for one more year to see if they get a better handle on the coaches. Hopefully next season doesn't end like this one did. My poor son - he didn't even know the other team's coach (neither do Tom or I - I've never seen him before). I understand that these coaches are volunteers, and that emotions can run high - but what happened to my son was inexcusable. It was a terrifying experience for him. Tom has coached several sports - for several years - and has never seen anything like this either.

So..........we're just going to see how things go next season. Hopefully Brendan still wants to play. If not, I'll just let him focus on his golf (that is his strength anyway) and we'll try to forget all about this. Brendan seems fine today. He has golf lessons in Ft. Collins today and Thursday - then he is done for the year.

The kids are thoroughly enjoying our play set and the back yard. I'll be glad when the fence is up. I'll feel more comfortable having the kids back there alone.

Sean is here until tomorrow afternoon, then he has to go back to Evanston for a dentist appt. It has been so nice having him home!

I'll check in later in the week!!! I hope you have a wonderful and blessed week.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Backyard pics

I decided to just post the pics of the back yard now. So, go to the post below for Shanna's link! The yard is complete - except for the fence and the basketball hoop. It is so nice to have it done! The kids just love it!!!

View from the patio. The kids LOVE their playset. It was installed on Thursday and they've been on it ever since.

View of the basketball court from the patio. We will install the hoop later.

View from the swing set toward the southeast corner of the house.

Vote for my friend, Shanna!

Here is the link to Shanna's awesome card. Please click to vote for your favorite card - and click Shanna Vineyard's name toward the bottom of the list of participants. She does amazing work and is such a doll!!! here is the linkety link link:,com_zoom/Itemid,28/page,viewproj/catid,800/

Lots going on here. Baseball is over, thank heavens. The playoffs were brutal. We hadn't expected to win the first round game, so playing yesterday morning was supposed to be a bonus for the kids. Not quite a bonus, I'm afraid. I arrived at the game to find the other team's coaches yelling about the fact that we had borrowed a couple of kids from other teams because we only had 7 players. Two were on vacation and one was mormon and not allowed to play on Sunday. Our coach called the League President and was told it was fine to borrow from teams of the same level. These kids weren't all-stars by any means - just your average 8 year old player. I am thinking of filing a complaint against the other team's coach because at one point in the game, he was standing behind Brendan - BRENDAN - jumping up and down, pointing at my dear son, and screaming, "He didn't touch second!!!! He didn't touch second!!!" (Brendan had been on first and made it to third - and yes, he DID touch 2nd base). Brendan was terrified. When he crossed (and touched) homeplate, I took a picture - just in case the coach wanted to question THAT. I have never seen coaching quite that bad. What. a. tool. Seriously. It was an ugly game. We lost by 1 run. I was just as happy not to have to play again after that mess. We gladly came home and spent a quiet afternoon together in our fabulous new back yard. I have inquired about putting Brendan in the recreation league in Ft. Collins next year and we found out that he can definitely play down there. It will be a pain to drive there twice a week for baseball, but at least he won't be exposed to situations like that again. His coach this year was wonderful. His coach last year was pretty bad (win at all cost), but not as bad as the opposing team's coach was yesterday morning. I think I'd like him to stay out of Cheyenne baseball from this point on - or at least until he is older. I truly believe that 8 years old is too young to have to deal with a grown man pointing at him and screaming about him like that. To top it all off, parents from the OTHER team were coming up to OUR coach and apologizing for their coach's behavior. It was so unfortunate and not at all what I want my child to witness at such a young age.

Well, I'll update more later in the week! Blessings to you all!!!

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

It could only happen to me!

I just recovered from pneumonia. in june. Tom says I am the only person he knows who could contract pneumonia in the middle of summer. I think he's right. At least I'm recovering and I don't feel like I am going to die any more. That was rough.

Brendan goes in tomorrow for his first of three appointments for his Phase 1 Braces! He is 8 years old. He will get Phase 2 when he is 12. Phase 1 is costing us $3,800. I don't even want to know what Phase 2 is going to cost us. Hopefully it helps. The poor kid has some crazy crooked teeth.

Other than the above, life is fantabulous!!!!!! We are having an awesome summer! The kids have had so much fun already. I can't believe how quickly it is going by though. I wish summer was longer than 2-1/2 months.

Marc arrived safely in Alaska. He is enjoying it so much. He won't be home until fall though. I hate having him gone so long, but he really loves his job up there.

Sean is coming home next weekend. Then he will be having Brendan come stay with him for a week in August. They are both so excited about it.

The landscapers are finished with the back yard. The super huge swingset will be delivered on the 10th. And the concrete dude is giving us a bid for our basketball court in one week. Hopefully it isn't too costly. Between landscaping and braces, we are about tapped out.

I will post some pics of some layouts I've been working on. I need to photograph them and download them from the camera.

Talk to you all soon!